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You don't need to thank me for something like that. I-- don't think I'm capable of doing much at all, right now. I don't know what to do to help.

Sometimes the most anyone can do is be present.

[ frowns, but. ]

... would you like to stay, for a while?

Mm, I think so.

[ nods, and starts pulling back the blankets on her bed, to make room for silfda to lie down when they're done with their tea. ]

[ they like, don't.

they actually just stare quietly down into their teacup. ]

How have you been, Cypress?

[ that's fine, it's just precautionary measures.

she sits back next to silfda though, and pauses at the question.

rubs her own neck, a little, awkwardly looking away. ]

Mm... um, I don't want to lie to you, but I don't think it's important, at all.

Why wouldn't it be?

You're more important, right now, and... I'm fine.

[ a long pause, uneasy. ]

I didn't fall.

I'm not important.

...

I think you're important.

[ they just like

stare at her. ]

[ stares back ]

-- what? I'm not the only one.

[ time for formaldog again ]

You are the least expected one! Cypress, we are hardly close enough that you should find something - or someone, if that heads off your ridiculous assertations I should refer to myself as anything but what I am - to be important to you! You and Amaranth, you're both so ridiculous! Hunters who know not where they stand, who give space to a beast that's soon to devour them all!

[ stunned, staring at them, her cheeks very quickly going red but her expression confused and hurt. ]

-- what are you talking about? I let you-- we slept together, I let you touch me-- if you weren't important, I would have never--

[ blink. blink.

their expression is just befuddlement, for once in their life. it is actually just completely shocking that someone would have sex with them because they're important to them? ]

I thought it was because you needed comfort.

D-- do you think I'm so-- easy, that I would do something like that just for--

[ visibly deeply mortified, and after a long moment of hesitation she pushes herself up to stand, taking a step away from the bed. ]

Just for comfort? When have I ever needed anyone's comfort by letting them touch me?

It - it is hardly a matter of easiness, as if something like that matters at all anyway...and comfort is an important thing, nonetheless...

[ they look back down into their cup, ears flattening. ]

I...don't know. Because I don't know you half as well as I should like. My apologies.

It does-- I can't--

[ shoulders hunched, arms crossed over her stomach, self-conscious. she looks like she's about to say something else-- then stops, sucking in a shuddering breath, and getting her tone of voice under careful control. ]

... no. It doesn't matter. This isn't about me, anyway. My apologies, for going off like that.

[ stupid. this is stupid. why are they even here right now, allowing themself to be fussed over? even the girl wouldn't allow that, so why should the beast? well - ]

You're important too, Cypress!

I sincerely don't want to be the focus of anyone's attention right now when you're here wearing bones you weren't before, acting strangely, and having just returned from falling from heaven.

I don't want to talk about me-- or my stupid, self-inflicted horrible day, or whatever you think I was doing by allowing myself to be touched by you, or anything like that, because it truly isn't important. I invited you here because I wanted to see you, Silfda. Maybe to try to help, if you wanted it. Give you anything you might have wanted, too. This isn't about me.

Most of my horrible days are just as self-inflicted. Especially the past few.

I jumped because I wanted to die, Cypress.

And did you? Are you satisfied?

Obviously not. I'm still here, aren't I? Just like always, it never ends.

[ quiet for a long moment. ]

That's a-- crap way to want to die.

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