how do you respond to that when you're practically incapable of viewing yourself as loveable by any measure and the idea that someone would actually love you is so unbelievable you can't even formulate a polite response as you normally would in an awkward situation because your brain has short-circuited entirely and there's only a single braincell left to function, at all,
she's tense, in the way a frightened animal might be, and staring at silfda with wide, confused eyes.
[ she's frozen under that for a long moment, her focus all inward-- why would silfda do this, why would she love something like her why her-- until she notices the touch, and the wetness, on her cheeks. she seems to snap out of it, a bit, and hastily pulls her hands back, pressing her sleeves to her eyes. ]
[ they brush the side of her face with their fingers, humming softly to themself. ]
I seem to recall telling you the same about myself. But, well, here we are. And so long as that's the case, I won't ask anything more from you than what you're willing and able to provide.
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beautifulend) wrote2026-09-03 08:03 pm
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how do you respond to that when you're practically incapable of viewing yourself as loveable by any measure and the idea that someone would actually love you is so unbelievable you can't even formulate a polite response as you normally would in an awkward situation because your brain has short-circuited entirely and there's only a single braincell left to function, at all,
she's tense, in the way a frightened animal might be, and staring at silfda with wide, confused eyes.
when she finally does speak, her voice is dry. ]
M... me?
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You.
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[ sort of-- chokes on her own voice, for a second,
and, unbidden, her eyes start to well up. ]
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Sorry-- I'm sorry, I--
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I-I don't know if I can-- if I'm able to--
[ a pause. and a deep breath. ]
I-I didn't... do anything to deserve this. I don't deserve this.
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I seem to recall telling you the same about myself. But, well, here we are. And so long as that's the case, I won't ask anything more from you than what you're willing and able to provide.
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You deserve-- better. Than me.
[ a pause, though, and a little shakier: ]
... thank you.
1/2
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Thank you.
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I'll be more careful in the future. Or I will do my best, at least.