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[beautifulend]

[ The voicemail message is just 60 seconds of muffled barking, unskippable. ]

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Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[softlyfalling]

I always feel like I'm off-balance, one way or another...

And, anyway. You are.

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[beautifulend]

You know what's funny? Hearing that still makes my heart beat faster, despite the context.

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[softlyfalling]

[ she rubs her hand across her throat, unconsciously—tracing the line of the scar there. ]

...Like a "really exciting fight for your life"?

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[beautifulend]

Like when someone important to you pats your head and tells you you were good!

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[softlyfalling]

[

reaches over and pats their head. ]

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[beautifulend]

[ !

!!!!!!!! ]

Master!

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[softlyfalling]

...I just thought it'd be nice.

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[beautifulend]

It was!

[ so nice they're going to flop on her and melt a little. ]

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[softlyfalling]

[ oh, that's...

...a little weird, but also cute. she's been petting a lot of dogs recently so why not headpets. ]

...I know you said you were sorry, but I think Glory could stand to work on empathy for others more, too...

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[beautifulend]

Could she? It's not like it's important when it comes to me.

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[softlyfalling]

Mm, well, she says it causes her problems sometimes in other cases...

...I mean, it sort of felt like defending—myself, somehow, like—having to justify why there are some things I can’t just stubbornly will myself into letting go of, either, even if they hurt.

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[beautifulend]

Is that a her problem? Almost every person I've spoken to here thinks you can just let go of having been broken.

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[softlyfalling]

...mm.

[ she just like. attempts to set her chin on their head. ]

I guess most of them—probably do think that, but—isn’t it common enough to return from war a changed person?

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[beautifulend]

[ her chin might sink in a little but they're at least solid enough for that. ]

Of course. That doesn't mean they understand unless they've been through it themselves.

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[softlyfalling]

Mm. I guess not, since most of them—haven't, really. As far as I know it's mostly—Jason, I guess, who I've talked to about this kind of thing, where he knew what I meant.

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[beautifulend]

BAD END=DEAD END in general seems to understand it well. Though I don't think many of them have experienced it, they've been through similar.

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[softlyfalling]

[ distantly: ] There was something here once, a game, that called me—"something changed forever."

But—mm, that doesn't surprise me, somehow.

You're right, though, that there's a lot of people that believe that you can just... wake up one morning and start over, and even if I could I'm not sure I'd want to?

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[beautifulend]

Of course. You wouldn't be you anymore if you did.

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[softlyfalling]

Yeah. You understand.

[ she just very lightly drops a kiss on top of their weird slime head. ok. ]

It gets easier sometimes but it'll never not be there.

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[beautifulend]

...Yeah. That's right.

[ they trail off, going somewhat still for a moment, and then: ]

Master, I want...

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[softlyfalling]

Ah... what?

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[beautifulend]

I can change my shape again. I want to enjoy that with you.

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[softlyfalling]

[ ////////

she flushes a dark color, and— ]

I'd, um.

I think I'd—like that, too.

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[beautifulend]

Mm, good.

[ because they need to think about something other than how much they want to die anyway, ]

Is there anything specific you wanted?

Re: Day 297 late I guess after the glory thing

[softlyfalling]

[ it's cool she's got the bad anx post that conversation with Glory and needs to not be trying to escape her skin into orbit so we're all on the same page here, ]

Just—you.

Guess you could, ah—do what you couldn't, last time, though.