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[ oh, that's...

...a little weird, but also cute. she's been petting a lot of dogs recently so why not headpets. ]

...I know you said you were sorry, but I think Glory could stand to work on empathy for others more, too...

Could she? It's not like it's important when it comes to me.

Mm, well, she says it causes her problems sometimes in other cases...

...I mean, it sort of felt like defending—myself, somehow, like—having to justify why there are some things I can’t just stubbornly will myself into letting go of, either, even if they hurt.

Is that a her problem? Almost every person I've spoken to here thinks you can just let go of having been broken.

...mm.

[ she just like. attempts to set her chin on their head. ]

I guess most of them—probably do think that, but—isn’t it common enough to return from war a changed person?

[ her chin might sink in a little but they're at least solid enough for that. ]

Of course. That doesn't mean they understand unless they've been through it themselves.

Mm. I guess not, since most of them—haven't, really. As far as I know it's mostly—Jason, I guess, who I've talked to about this kind of thing, where he knew what I meant.

BAD END=DEAD END in general seems to understand it well. Though I don't think many of them have experienced it, they've been through similar.

[ distantly: ] There was something here once, a game, that called me—"something changed forever."

But—mm, that doesn't surprise me, somehow.

You're right, though, that there's a lot of people that believe that you can just... wake up one morning and start over, and even if I could I'm not sure I'd want to?

Of course. You wouldn't be you anymore if you did.

Yeah. You understand.

[ she just very lightly drops a kiss on top of their weird slime head. ok. ]

It gets easier sometimes but it'll never not be there.

...Yeah. That's right.

[ they trail off, going somewhat still for a moment, and then: ]

Master, I want...

Ah... what?

I can change my shape again. I want to enjoy that with you.

[ ////////

she flushes a dark color, and— ]

I'd, um.

I think I'd—like that, too.

Mm, good.

[ because they need to think about something other than how much they want to die anyway, ]

Is there anything specific you wanted?

[ it's cool she's got the bad anx post that conversation with Glory and needs to not be trying to escape her skin into orbit so we're all on the same page here, ]

Just—you.

Guess you could, ah—do what you couldn't, last time, though.

[ they laugh, deep and husky. they pull themself off her a little so they can put a hand against her abdomen, pressing firmly. ]

Mm, really? You want me to rut you like the beast I am? To fill you?

Fuck—

[ it’s less spoken and more breathed out, and a shiver runs down her spine— ]

I really—yeah. Right now that’s exactly what I want.

Mm, good. Make sure you scream loud for me, Master.

[ and then they just

like

melt into the water. there's no real sign of them after that side from the fact that the water immediately surrounding Shrike has taken on a silvery sheen. ]

Ah, where—

[ sort of looking quizzically at the water around her, ]

...that’s all you?

[ there's no response.

at least until the water shifts - then Shrike can very distinctly feel hands on her thighs, moving them apart, followed by something nosing at her crotch. ]

Ohh—

[ her breath catches, in mild surprise, and she spreads her legs a little further, obliging, leaning her elbows back against the ledge. ]

[ the vibration of a pleased hum echoes through the water, and immediately after something like a tongue drags itself across her folds - it's much broader than a tongue would be, and malleable enough that it conforms to her every contour, so much so that it just barely enters her as it passes. ]

[ she makes a soft, needy gasp, eyes fluttering half-closed, hips canting on instinct into the touch. ]

I think I’d been—hoping for... something like this.

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