Beautiful End ([personal profile] beautifulend) wrote2026-09-03 08:03 pm

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Re: sometime day 301

[personal profile] nihilmancy 2020-11-23 06:06 pm (UTC)(link)
I have quite a lot of it in me. There is a power in me that is terrible, that destroys, that revels in it's own strength. A power that is cruel and terrible. It's a part of me, no less so because I can be gentle and kind.

During that first game, it was stirred by those compulsions, and unused to it, I succumbed entirely.
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Re: sometime day 301

[personal profile] nihilmancy 2020-11-25 02:33 am (UTC)(link)
If I had been more aware of who I was, I may have succumbed in a different way.

I am... a monstrous being, a terrible creature, but that's not all I am. That is how I like to see it.
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Re: sometime day 301

[personal profile] nihilmancy 2020-11-25 06:29 am (UTC)(link)
But you don't think you are.
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Re: sometime day 301

[personal profile] nihilmancy 2020-11-25 06:36 am (UTC)(link)
You're wrong about that... but I lack the context or the ability to persuade you of otherwise.

Shrike told me a little about your background. There is much about you I cannot agree with, certainly not your goals, and yet... I am drawn to you. I feel something about you that I'm still trying to understand.
Edited 2020-11-25 06:37 (UTC)
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Re: sometime day 301

[personal profile] nihilmancy 2020-11-29 05:33 am (UTC)(link)
...I'm not trying to tell you what to do, or to say that I know your circumstances, beyond the vaguest way.
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Re: sometime day 301

[personal profile] nihilmancy 2020-12-06 08:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Still. I do think of you as more than just a role that is being played.

Re: sometime day 301

[personal profile] nihilmancy 2020-12-08 03:11 am (UTC)(link)
...Well, it was terrible in any case that you were coerced the way you were. I do care about you.
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Re: sometime day 301

[personal profile] nihilmancy 2020-12-11 09:37 pm (UTC)(link)
Maybe I shouldn't, but I still do.

But I don't want to just hear things about you from Shrike. I want to hear from you. I want you to tell me your truths. You're more to me than whatever your context with Shrike is.

Re: sometime day 301

[personal profile] nihilmancy 2020-12-19 06:13 pm (UTC)(link)
I want you to tell me who you consider yourself to be, in your own words.

Re: sometime day 301

[personal profile] nihilmancy 2020-12-22 05:47 am (UTC)(link)
That seems to hold specific meanings to you.
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Re: sometime day 301

[personal profile] nihilmancy 2020-12-24 09:36 pm (UTC)(link)
I do, but I want to hear your version of it, not how I've interpreted it.